The Beginning.

I've always wanted to write a blog.  Ive started a few times, but as a general rule after a few posts, I abandon all pretense of dedication.  I think sometimes I feel like I don't have a very exciting life.  But, they say write what you know, and if there is one thing I know, it is fat.  So here I am, sending my thoughts out into cyber space once again with the hope that if nothing else this blog can hold me accountable for what I hope is to be a lifestyle change with drastic (albeit slow and steady) results.

At 333 lbs I am what you would call morbidly obese.  Ugh.  Just seeing that number makes me cringe.  I know, I know, I did not put it on over night, but I am almost 3 regular size people.  It's depressing.  I think it is safe to say I do not have a healthy relationship with food.

I've never been overtly active, save for a brief period in my early childhood.  Up until the age of seven I was enrolled in tap, jazz, swimming lessons, and gymnastics.  When my parents split up the first time, the lessons stopped as my mother could not afford them on a single income.  Although, I suspect my paternal grandparents were actually paying for them before that, and when she moved me away from my father, I can't blame them for not feeling as inclined to foot the bill.  I suppose the loss of activity coupled with what I can now identify as depression in a 7 year old lead to the start of my love/hate relationship with food.  No longer having activities obviously reduced my caloric burn on a day to day basis, but also left me with more time to be bored.  Yes folks, I am a boredom eater.  In the 2 decades to come this definitely turned into a bad combination.  I was never coordinated enough for sports.  That with the fear of being hit by various sports paraphernalia (pucks, balls, birdies.. etc).. Sports and I were never meant to have a close relationship, I don't think.  Much to my fathers disappointment.  But that I think is a post for another day.

So here I am at 27, 28 next month, and I am finally ready to take a step in the fitness/weight loss direction.  My husband and I have made the commitment to each other, and to our future children, to become healthier adults so that we can be around for our future family.. and their families.  Honestly, I am so blessed to have such a wonderful man who so supportive and willing to help me with this.  Today is day one, and I am so excited.

Ask me how I feel next week, ha ha.